Yesterday was a challenging day. Almost 24 hours after the fact, it is even more challenging to recall the specifics of “why” the day was so challenging – but that’s another story. Given the fact that I have little certainty about the future of my job and my career, the inability to drive, the need to take drugs that impair my mental state – my life is good. I am happy, healthy and I have family that is supporting me through these troubled times. However, some days are incredibly frustrating and we don’t perform up to the capacity that we think we can and should. Yesterday was most certainly one of those days. When we feel like that, it is important to realize that we must keep putting one foot in front of the other and simply carry on. Regardless of what we do (or don’t do), the sun will still rise in the East tomorrow. It is important to try and remain grateful during these troubled times and focus on the good that surrounds us.
11/12/13 – Episode 0010 – [28:08] – Picking up the pieces
Join us today as we discuss:
Recent hospitalization / leave of absence
Epilepsy and chronic medical conditions
Breakdown of the past 6 weeks
Show preparation and/or lack thereof (for today’s show)
“Part of what’s on my mind is not represented in this blog.”
Procrastination and things building up exponentially
We are our own biggest critic
We never satisfy ourselves
Reflections on my hospitalization, personal disaster and disaster preparedness
Recently wrote an article for Brink of Freedom regarding chronic medical conditions (such as epilepsy)
Chronic medical conditions from a preparedness standpoint and what we can do to live accordingly
After the past 7 days – if I don’t go through the processes I am engaging in this very moment, I may likely go even more mad than I have already become.
Normally, in feeling the feelings that I’m feeling as I write these words – the normal prescription would be to simply write. However, since trying my hand at podcasting over two weeks ago, I have since made 5 recordings and realized that ranting into my small audio recording is rather enjoyable. Reflecting on those first 5 podcasts, I realize that the better ones were when I had done some prep work going into it. Coming in second are the recordings where I followed up on the back end for 30-60 minutes with some follow up on the material that I had discussed. Tonight – I will likely do both. Otherwise, I’ll successfully drive myself crazy.
Why am I feeling like this? Easy…stress.
Why am I feeling so stressed?
Communication (or lack thereof)
Importance of clear communication and follow through / follow up
Importance of doing what we say we are going to do. Be a person of your word.
Lack of direction
Even self-starters need some direction
Feedback provided when feedback requested
Try to limit our frustration when we are direct contributors to the source of the frustration
“Do what you gotta do before you can do what you wanna do”
Healthy methods of coping with stress – for me writing (which has evolved into a podcast)
What are some healthy and beneficial ways that you choose to deal with stress?
Discussion about Verizon store experience:
The Verizon store experience spurned me to *act* on the thought that had been on my mind for several months
Round 1 of Social Experiment of quitting Facebook in 2012.
Get rid of smartphone and return back to a “basic” phone with a simple talk and text plan.
Desire to increase my “human” experience.
I suspect that this experience may likely be aggravating, but I feel like I must observe this experience (and I’ll probably enjoy the hell out of it)
These life experiences are the very “tests” I feel I need to engage in to reassure myself that I am making the right decision by farming and homesteading
Humanity is Domesticated Livestock and Thoughts on Being an Extremist
The desire to begin homesteading and helping my parents grow what is turning into the family farm is a big decision. It essentially is a decision that is causing me to re-evaluate my entire life and the way in which I’ve been living it to date…especially over the past 5-6 years with the direction my career has headed. My parents deciding to engage in major life changes in their 60’s is one of the main drivers behind living my life the way that I do, making the decisions that I make and ultimately taking the actions that I take.
With that said, these are all actions that I’m engaging in to ensure that Farming / Homestead –> Permaculture is the right direction for me. I firmly believe this to be the case based on the amount of time and effort I am putting forward with this, but because I am consistently doubting this, I feel like I need to verify these decisions. Often times, I feel like I need to validate my decisions because I’ve spent many years throughout my lifetime making poor decisions and lots of mistakes.
Some of the time and effort I’ve been putting forward is the development of this blog, which will be a primer for my homestead based website. While I’ve already secured the domain name (to be revealed at a later date) – I am working on the overall “objective” of my site. My mission statement if you will…perhaps it will be something like this:
“Introducing you to a modern day paleolithic gnomestead”
Here’s a little inspiration behind what I’m doing:
So…why the shift towards permaculture?
Moreover, besides the heady and free-range aspect of the Permaculture movement, it is my belief that OUR NATION IS IN DECLINE. Today, I experienced a good reminder of this when I watched this video below:
Whether you believe that our nation is in decline our not there are a few simple facts that we need to be aware of. Our nation is on the verge of going to WAR. The events in Syria are getting little attention. While I don’t know all the details of Syria…the reality is that this is yet another example of the state of affairs our nation is in.
Moreover, all this nonsense in syria…people are distracted by Miley Cyrus and everything that has occurred recently during the MTV Video Music Awards. With regard to major events occurring in the socio-global-economic sphere, the majority of people are too apathetic and complacent to even give a damn. We’re simply too wrapped up in our own decadence and greed. The majority of people do not know history…and this is frightening – because as the old saying goes…”those that do not know history are doomed to repeat it.”
We are currently living in a time of decadence and greed – do we not know history, nor do we care to (generally speaking). Our society has become apathetic and complacent resulting in a society of fat, dumb and happy people. You may choose whoever you wish to blame if that is the route you care to take…but if you go down that road then you have fallen victim to the trap and the illusion that you actually have a choice. We think we have a choice…democrat or republican, apple or android, ford or chevy…while we are bickering about what is better and/or whose fault the problems are…we are also losing sight of the very things that made us American in the first place.
All the while as we bicker and fight with each other, we take the very things that America was founded on for granted. Moreover, the culture of fear and blame causes us to take our liberty for granted. When we take our liberty for granted, we begin to lose our liberty. When we lose our liberty we lose our happiness. We are too stupid to realize this, however…we’re too busy – preoccupied with bickering with one another and concerned about winning the particular argument of the day. This is precisely the point. The more we argue with one another, the more liberty and happiness we lose. Listen to the message from Adam Kokesh about us taking our happiness and liberty for granted:
Happiness is a choice…yet we control our happiness. Human nature, humanity and human consciousness is absolutely beautiful and incredible. Society is seemingly unaware as our own humanity slides through our fingers like grains of sand. We continue to lose our humanity in a number of different ways, including but not limited to technology and the decadence of our society. Moreover it is the abuse of the abundance that we experience due to our incredible humanity. Moreover, we are losing sight of our freedoms, how we got there and what we are going to do in order to retain and/or regain it when we lose it. WHEN we lose it…because the reality is that we WILL – people think this is extreme, but they simply do not know history. Again…not only do we not know history, but we have no desire to learn it.
America is not a place or a location. America was an idea. We have lost the idea of what America is/was. As this continues, America continues to decline. Whether the decline actually results in another revolution remains to be seen. This is not something that I want to see happen, but it is something that I want to prepare for by adjusting the manner in which I live my life. I want to return to the values and lifestyle that our country was founded upon. By learning these skills and teaching these skills, the skills get carried on and passed down through generations. The process of doing this helps us live a better life, for when times get tough – or even if they don’t.
My parents are learning these skills for different reasons, and for my own reasons I find it desirable to learn these skills in order to teach others how to do it. This is the point with my homestead and the objective of the website and blog I’m in the process of creating as well as my desire to get involved in the Permaculture movement. While the instances regarding the decline of society sadden me and when I experience days like I have lately with less than desirable communication and poor experiences like at the Verizon store…i need to remember that this is a means to an end and that I’m merely taking steps to live a better life.
When I get down on myself about the stresses in life and the things that I need to do to cope with them it always helps me to put things in perspective when I hear stories from people who have greater stories than i do and who have walked tougher roads than I have. The start experiment is so stimulating and encouraging in this way. I’m motivated and inspired by people just like this. They’ve inspired me to do more writing and as a result I have become a columnist for a new website called Brink of Freedom. This recent development of becoming a columnist is very much in line with my dreams to teach and educate and share my passion for homesteading, health and wellness and living a good life.
I hope that my work makes an impact on people and based on experiences thus far I believe it has. I hope to continue this with each day that I live and share with you. Chase your dreams and encourage others to do the same. Everytime you have the ability to do this, welcome them to the first day of the rest of their life and encourage them to do the same.